Wish List

My mother keeps asking me what i want for christmas and my birthday and I don't know what to tell her. I don't want to say things that cost a lot of money, but thats kinda all that i want for real. But because I've been trying to get my thoughts straight i thought I'd list everything here

1. T.v.
2. Laptop
3. car
4. gift card to barnes and noble
5. gift card to hot topic
6. gift card to sephora
7. clothes
8. purse (i want a lv speedy)
9. Harry Potter lego years 5-7
10. Nimbus 2001

Yeah, other than that I can't think about anything. i know that most of the things on there are expensive. She doesn't like hot topic so thats a no. She doesn't wanna get me a laptop and the car is probably a hell no. She doesn't think i need more clothes so yea. Sephora will probably be like $20. she doesn't know that make up is expensive as crap so yea. and she def wont get me a speedy so she'll get something else. and the nimbus is a no because i should be grown out of potter right now. so yeah. u tell me what that leaves. i should just be more girly right and ask for like perfume and vick secret crap and more shoes. I want the 5's my jordan but the expensive so she probably won't pay 150 for no damn shoes. this is why i don't ever actually ask for anything for my birthday. 10 days after christmas means u aint really getting anything anyway. :(
well thats that.
I have a more detailed wish list like that make i spesifically want but i know that my mother wouldn't know where to find some of the stuff and she isn't buying anything online she said. so I'll probably put my stuff on a visa and get stuff from elf's website and probably get hot topic stuff anyway. Plus i want an iphone. that would freaking amazing. so yeah. just waiting to see what happens reaally.m iaubfjnvalkdfnv   blah. that is how i feel. I don't like asking for stuff. and i don't like when ppl ask me what i want because the answer is harry potter. and when u don't like that i like harry potter because i'm turning 22 then i don't know what to tell you

asian Fail

Okay, so i know that i was supposed to post for all of my asian inpired things, but i just fail at picture taking. when i went back to post i ended up deleting most pictures because the lighten was terrible, or someone complained about not wanted to be put on the internet. blah. so I'm truly sorry for the delay. but my top 5 will bw up and i can promise that it will be interesting. My music taste is all over the place so yeah

2 Rings

Don't hate how when u call someone...like your boyfriend, and you get 2 rings and then the voice mail.
Well nigga what the hell you doing? Why the fuck did i just go to voicemail? Then he forever has a n excuse as to why. He was on the other line and when he tried to answer the phone he hit the wrong button by mistake or some crap. That shit just fucking kills me.

I have been trying and i son't understand why its just not paying off. I like to see results and if i don't see them i wont give them. It may seem selfish but thats just me> he knows that
when i'm happy he is happy so yea....whatever, i'm trying to go over there tonight and get over this dumb shit, and i'm going to make him my sexy slave bitch woot!!!
lol
but i'm not kidding though. about to get that good dick
i'm kiddin

<3 winter

My Top 5

I haven't done this in a while but this is my top 5 for this week

1. versaEmerge-lost tree
2. youtube-teach me how to dobby
3. lacuna coil- trip the darkness
4. big sean ft. nicki minaj- dance ass
5. simple and clean- utada hikara

I know that i may repeat some songs sometimes and i hope i don't get too repetative, but its just that songs that stick out that week. I may have some songs that i just couldn't get rid of that week. They just stay with me all month.
But most of there are songs that are completely new to me because i've just had music choice on all week just trying to get back into my zone.

Simple and clea is an old fav. love j=pop and soundtracks
the teach me how to dobby was from when i found tons of wrock songs and i love lacuna coil so i looked up some new stuff

everything else on this list i kinda just found and i thought i'd share.

Really There

Whenever I'm having issues or feeling down my boyfriend always seems to be there when i need him. Like i don't call him or anything he just knows. He is just in this great mood that is so infectious. its kkinda annoying actually because whnever i need him other times it seems like i can't find him but when i NEED him and no one else can make me happy he is ther for me and i love it. I feel like sometimes i should just learn to get over myself,
I know right. I must practice what i preach. I think that if i got ever myself sometimes then we;d fight less. I just don't know what to do, but i know that he is an amazing guy. He's a little laggin on the bf duties but he is trying....well i hope he is. I hinestly don't see the trying p[art, but i think that if i get my shit together and we both put in some effort we could be super chillz. We are very similar and i think thats why we aren't so good together sometimes

we are stubborn. I know that i am, his problem is that he doesn't think that he is, but whatever. I don't have to worry about that too much longer, because i think that if one of us changes then the other will be more happy to do certain things. And because i know that he can make me happy i am more than willing to. the thing up til now is that i just didn't know how to go about doin that. I'm a human and we don't like change so i haven't actually been doing all that great, but i feel like i should get and e for effort at least right?
idk, maybe. well I' hope i'm not boring anyone with my wack ass post, i just wanted to talk to someone about it. I just had a kinda off day and i called him and he was extra happy and we "tumblr'd" together over the phone. I love checking out his blog, and i love posting things on my tumblr that i know he likes, like owlies and baby animals, and aweoms cars and certain games and other thing like that. I know that he knows me well. we are just such weird people that sometimes i don't know what to do with all the awesome in one room. I think that we have been coming into ourselves lately so i really want to do that.

I'll have better pictures and things up this week I  might even give you guys a sneak peak at our awesome x-mas tree ness because we have 2
yes we have 2 trees because...well i honestly don't know why we have 2 but we have the space for 2 this year so we have 2 damn tree. get over yourself.

Blogger Mess Up

Okay, so i was goin to do an outfit of the day but I wasn't sure. Then I was absolutely postively sure that i wold but the lighting was bad in the living room and i just can't manage the camera angle right in my room so i said that i'd get someone to help me when i get to where i'm goin. Got there said my hellos and some how got onto the topic of the biggest asshole i know
Well i broke down didn't care...still don't care and all i wanna do is go to sleep. Why haven't i done so? Because I want to talk to him so no sleep for me.
WHy havne't i done the outfit of the day even thoug i'm not doing anything? Because at this point it doesn't matter. I look terrible. All i really cared about was the make up i did today and that crap looks terrible now most likely. i'm too afraid to look at myself in the mirror to tell you the honest truth

I can not believe that I've let myself turn into that person
.....
anyway I messed up. Next time i'm going to figure it out and get it right so that i have some kind of quality post so that when the time comes i don't sit in front of the computer screen and feel this damn stupid. Okay well i'm about to go and decide weather i want you guys to know about my love life or not.

JamJam/ Ham/ Jammy

One of my friends committed suicide on the 15th of this month. It has taken me this long to post about it  for several reasons.
1. We weren't all that close so i didn't want to write anything without thinking it over first.
2.I figured I'd make one large post after the funeral and all
3. I think that i needed to hear what some of our friends said first

So the problem is.....didn't really get to see what anyone said.
why you may ask?
because there will be no funeral. This  is blowing my mind right now... She moved to colorado so there is nothing down in Maryland going on. I have a huge problem with that. Her mother was goin got have a memorial and kept pushing it back and pushing it back and now for some reason there isn't goin got be a funeral at all
maybe the memorial is still going to be in december, but i also have a problem with at
Now everyone keeps saying that i need to keep it to myself and get over it, there isn't too much to be done. Since when does Winter keep shit to herself?

I DON'T!
I am very much so aware that i may not be her mother but someone has got to get shit done when a mother doesn't want to act like one
Now J and Koppa put all of their awesomeness together and made a memorial for her, just for the friends so for that I'm happy.
The memorial was aweosme. I didn't take pictures because i thought it might be innappropriate to do so at an event like that.

EVERYONE!!! and I mean everyone pretty much got up and said something.
We shared out joy and out sorrow. Amazing moments with an amazing girl and i really hope that everyone agree with me when i say that was an angel in diguise.

She may have hurt and she may have felt things that us mere mortals did not feel but it was all in the name of the god and goddess. She went through it all as a testiment to who she was and no matter what anyone says she touched so many people in so many ways and she deserves to be relieved of that pain.

SO many people love her and so many ppl will miss her and i just hope that we all come together to be better people for it

I come from a group of friends that were so close in high school and then when most of us left school we fell apart. some of us became different people and we penalized for being our true selves and Never has anyone changed into a better them have I loved them anyless. It's when you critisize and belittle others that has made you the bad guy. So all i ask is that out "family" stop being stupid and get your shit together. No one is going to love you the way that this group does. No one is ever going to care.
So please, stop fighting and love on another because if there is anything that Jam taught us is that it's okay to be yourselves. your real self, or else you'll suffer the same.
and i don't think that any of us can deal with another situation like that



stay together, love one another keep it Kawaii <3 winter

Hang Time Baby!??!!?!

Okay so my mom just braided my hair for me. Like corn rowed it. I don't really care for these kinds of styles but it seems that when ppl keep there hair done then it growns faster...or maybe its because when i have my hair in a bush i notice how slow its growing. idk, so yeah.

My brother is the master of having braided haor...so when he saw that my hair had hang time, he calculated my hair and his and feels that my mom does a better job at my hair than his because of my hang time. I know i have not hair and so i should have no hang time but thats not the case....yo mad for real.

sorry billy
but my hair is much bigger than yours, my hair can walk right through the door with a feeling so pure, its got you screaming back for more!!!!!

I don't know if any one of you know but i cut my hair to near extistion on may and my hair hasn't grown much at all. Like all I had was an inch or so of hair and my brother...well he got hair for days. He'd kill me if i posted pix of him so here are some of my

 Here is a pic of the screen because i'm a big lame-o

 Here is a pic of me where i look really pale for some reason....don't like

 Here is me giving the peace and love <3

 Showing off the amount of hang time that i thougt i'd never have

 Don't you love the gauge I took from the boyfried?

hang time baby!!

=3 fenton

http://youtu.be/_tX75yT8IPc
just a really quick post before i fall asleep
I think that everyone should watch this episode of equals 3
tis hilarious, I personally think the fenton should have his own show. very anti lassie. I can see all the trouble now

Make you're own E/S Primer

So all I do is win win win...jk, all I do is surf youtube and I came across this vid in my recommended section. I really think that everyone should go and check it out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeqT3InFN-s&feature=colike

so yea. it's cheap and easy and awesome if u have all the ingredients. save you tons of money. I'll have some test photos up soon