here are a few updates for those who care enough to check it out
well one the guy that I've been with on and off well we were off for longer than we had been on so i moved on...and I moved...into his house.
my mother put me out yet again and it got to the point where i didn't feel like dealing with it but with no one else that i could trust i moved in with him
I also got a new boy friend
he is really freaking cool plus he supports everything that i do and doesn't mind making appearances on blogs and YouTube vids and what not
Umm we, the bf and I, along with a friend got into a car accident on the 30th of April so at this point i am in physical therapy and not doing any type of work
yea, i didn't have a job before, but now everyone is saying that for a while i shouldn't have one
well guess what? i have to pay my exes mom rent every month so you can just stick that somewhere cuz its not whats up
also I've been crocheting more, but lately I've been taking longer to do things than normally and I think that's because i started going slower so i can enjoy it. if I don't then I'll just run out of yarn and not be able to crochet for a while. so I'm going to be taking all my money and buying yarn. then I'm going to open a big cartel and just put some stuff on there. Its going to be the free site though because its not a serious thing but it is something I love
going on to serious things
i may be starting a MUA class next month or July
I really wish that I could now but i don't have to money for it and I still don't have a job
this whole job thing was supposed to get easier when i left my moms House
there was supposed to be no restriction on where i can go as long as i can get there but i think its because i have the restrictions still in my mind
its really hard to stop thinking the way I've been programmed to for the last 22 years. I've been living by my mothers rules for all my life basically and there is no other way for me to figure it out
well I'm going to be applying and reapplying to MAC every month til I get hired. I'm going to take any job that will give me hours accept McDonald(the ones in this area are all ran by the same type of weird people) and get up ad do it all again every morning
I need to focus on being more healthy and losing weight and I need to get some motivation. my brother and my boyfriend are my motivations honestly
If it wasn't for my bf my room would still look a hot ass mess and i would still have all the crap in the world in the middle of my floor
its him that gets me up early enough to do anything even when he has stuff of his on to do
and well my brother is my only sibling that takes care of me on a nurturing and loving level.
I can't let him grow up and then have the same things happen to him that my mother did to me. i know that she is going to fuss and fight an say things that she might think her but they do
I don't care who you are or what you stick and stone and all that but words can hurt...especially from a oblivious mother. when your mother talks it burns so for them two I have to get everything together. i can't keep trying to figure out my life. i need to already know it and be fucking bad ass at it.
