SO I've been waiting to go home to post my Valentines day blog but I'm still not home. I've been at my moms house since Valentines day(sunday0 and its Saturday.
Valentines day was great
So as most of you have read, i planned on having a great big Valentine's Day planned out but nothing ever goes as planned
anyway i still got to come back to town and have a good time with my boyfriend.
We saw the movie Sherlock Holmes
it was great
he cooked me dinner and we just had a blast hanging with eachother
I fell asleep several times through out the course of the day so I feel bad.
I had to be to work at 7am 7 days in a row.
Can they do that?...mom my asked.
well IDK but I went didn't I.
i needed the money.
We sat up and talked for hours about nothing
it was great
he held me and let me fall asleep.
We both ended up waking up 5 in the morning because thats what our bodies are used to now. and we just laughed about it and talked some more
he makes me feel like a kid, but like a grown ass woman too
he makes me feel filled with butterflies and marshmallows and cottoncandy
I love him more than he can know
and everytime I hear a Nirvana song i just wanna laugh <3
we dance around his room and scream at the top of our lungs
Valentines day was one of the best days I've had in a long time
and the sad part about it all is it had to happen because of a holiday
things like that dont always happen the way i wish they would.
ppl act diffrent because society tells them to
i don'e get to see him that much anymore
I don't gett o hold him
and sometimes I don't think he thinks about it that way :(
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
good things come to those who wait
As some of you may know I've been wanting alot of things lately.
Things that I can't afford, or just can't manage
Well I was supposed to go over my boyfriends' house for Valentine's Day weekend. Well I ended up needing to work that whole weekend except for valentines day itself....Well a friend of mine was supposed to take me there. At the end of the day she flaked...I'm really tired of ppl flaking on me. Just say no. All you have to do say no. Stop telling my yes and then saying NO at the LAST minute with some BULLSHIT reason.
Then work has been driving me crazy...I don't know how much I make yet, and the hours are stupid. I get several hours one week. Like seven days in a row, and then the next week i end up working none. Zero=no money.
Plus all of friends back where my mom live haven't been making anytime for me and its killing me. None of them call me of talk or chat or anything anymore.
Now, I know all of that stuff works both ways but thats the thing, I have been trying and I just wanna cry like everyday. I'm completly exhausted when it comes to everything. I mean, I nearly fel out at work the other day because I'm so friggin tired.
And finally, the least of my problems is weight loss. I feel that losing weight will benefit me in the long run. But i feel like I'm slacking on working out because I'm always so tired and i dont eat right because I just eat what there is in the house to eat. I don't have any money to get anything so whats there is whats in my belly.
So I've decided to look at everything in a better light and see it all as a way to learn something...and guess what...? I have actually been getting what I want.So my best friend asked me if I was losing weight. I'm all like no, and she's all like yeah...and I'm like shut up.
SO her brother and I go hang out with some friends and the punch line I lost 15lbs. SO i'm totally pumped about that.
Next is the job not giving me any hours next week...gives me time to catch up on some needed sleep and find a new job.
Also on this list of awesome-ness i got on facebook, and some of my friends were acting normal and talking to me like i never left. I know we can't see each other, and I know most of them(all) aren't phone people. I'm not anymore either, but I just don't want to lose friends. So we were talking on ZOMBIES and it was all cool.
And finally, my mom called me on Valentine's Day morning and asked was I still coming down. I told her no because of the friend that wasn't bringing me down. Mother decided that she was going to come get me!!!!!!!! <3
I was so HAPPY when she said that.
My Valentine's Day was wonderful and I got spend it with my family and my baby.
but thats something for another post all together.
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Things that I can't afford, or just can't manage
Well I was supposed to go over my boyfriends' house for Valentine's Day weekend. Well I ended up needing to work that whole weekend except for valentines day itself....Well a friend of mine was supposed to take me there. At the end of the day she flaked...I'm really tired of ppl flaking on me. Just say no. All you have to do say no. Stop telling my yes and then saying NO at the LAST minute with some BULLSHIT reason.
Then work has been driving me crazy...I don't know how much I make yet, and the hours are stupid. I get several hours one week. Like seven days in a row, and then the next week i end up working none. Zero=no money.
Plus all of friends back where my mom live haven't been making anytime for me and its killing me. None of them call me of talk or chat or anything anymore.
Now, I know all of that stuff works both ways but thats the thing, I have been trying and I just wanna cry like everyday. I'm completly exhausted when it comes to everything. I mean, I nearly fel out at work the other day because I'm so friggin tired.
And finally, the least of my problems is weight loss. I feel that losing weight will benefit me in the long run. But i feel like I'm slacking on working out because I'm always so tired and i dont eat right because I just eat what there is in the house to eat. I don't have any money to get anything so whats there is whats in my belly.
So I've decided to look at everything in a better light and see it all as a way to learn something...and guess what...? I have actually been getting what I want.So my best friend asked me if I was losing weight. I'm all like no, and she's all like yeah...and I'm like shut up.
SO her brother and I go hang out with some friends and the punch line I lost 15lbs. SO i'm totally pumped about that.
Next is the job not giving me any hours next week...gives me time to catch up on some needed sleep and find a new job.
Also on this list of awesome-ness i got on facebook, and some of my friends were acting normal and talking to me like i never left. I know we can't see each other, and I know most of them(all) aren't phone people. I'm not anymore either, but I just don't want to lose friends. So we were talking on ZOMBIES and it was all cool.
And finally, my mom called me on Valentine's Day morning and asked was I still coming down. I told her no because of the friend that wasn't bringing me down. Mother decided that she was going to come get me!!!!!!!! <3
I was so HAPPY when she said that.
My Valentine's Day was wonderful and I got spend it with my family and my baby.
but thats something for another post all together.
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Friday, February 12, 2010
update:weight loss
okay...so remeber when i said that i was going to lose weight...?
do you?
okay we it doesn't actually matter if you remeber because i'm taking it back and then i'm putting it back out there just so everyone has heard it from me and not from someone else.
I told myslef that i was going to lose some weight for health reasons...just because i don't really know too much about the things that is in my family history and i don't want to get sick anytime soon...I'm only 20 yrs. old.
I know this is going to sound stupid....but you know how some ppl dont care about the greater risk...not that they are truely ignoring that fact that they can get sick or something but they feel as though that is hasn't be anything personal so its not a threat...
well i think thats how I am...I keep slacking because i haven't be in the direct path of fire as of yet...so i'm going to do this for a more vain reason...
i want to be able to wear a 2 piece this summer. I want to show my boyfriend that i can be super hot in the summer.
that is also a health reason in its own way too
some people just need to feel pretty to have a good time and the more you smile and the more happy you are, you have 15% chance to live a happier healthier life than the average person...
and i believe that...
when i was in middle school i used to feel so ugly and i was rarely ever in a good mood.
i'd always have to hide how i felt about everything
i felt fat and ugly and stupid and none of the guys liked me.
ever since i laft high school i feel much better.
but long story short...everyone needs a reason that will work for them, the same way you need a work out that will work for you....
that brings me to P90X
I dont have it but my friends brother does and he is going to let me borrow it and some days i'm going to work out with him...
that is something that i'm looking forward to
he says that he has fun doing it.............(he has fun doing anything)
tee hee
but he and i are going to be super sexy.
he also want to look awesome sauce for the summer but he just wants to be ripped for the girls
i guess that also has to do with being sad and or lonely
idk...
i just know that for me its more than being pretty, its being healthy and hopefully nothing that runs in the family will get to my kids....
happy life, and happy heart
do you?
okay we it doesn't actually matter if you remeber because i'm taking it back and then i'm putting it back out there just so everyone has heard it from me and not from someone else.
I told myslef that i was going to lose some weight for health reasons...just because i don't really know too much about the things that is in my family history and i don't want to get sick anytime soon...I'm only 20 yrs. old.
I know this is going to sound stupid....but you know how some ppl dont care about the greater risk...not that they are truely ignoring that fact that they can get sick or something but they feel as though that is hasn't be anything personal so its not a threat...
well i think thats how I am...I keep slacking because i haven't be in the direct path of fire as of yet...so i'm going to do this for a more vain reason...
i want to be able to wear a 2 piece this summer. I want to show my boyfriend that i can be super hot in the summer.
that is also a health reason in its own way too
some people just need to feel pretty to have a good time and the more you smile and the more happy you are, you have 15% chance to live a happier healthier life than the average person...
and i believe that...
when i was in middle school i used to feel so ugly and i was rarely ever in a good mood.
i'd always have to hide how i felt about everything
i felt fat and ugly and stupid and none of the guys liked me.
ever since i laft high school i feel much better.
but long story short...everyone needs a reason that will work for them, the same way you need a work out that will work for you....
that brings me to P90X
I dont have it but my friends brother does and he is going to let me borrow it and some days i'm going to work out with him...
that is something that i'm looking forward to
he says that he has fun doing it.............(he has fun doing anything)
tee hee
but he and i are going to be super sexy.
he also want to look awesome sauce for the summer but he just wants to be ripped for the girls
i guess that also has to do with being sad and or lonely
idk...
i just know that for me its more than being pretty, its being healthy and hopefully nothing that runs in the family will get to my kids....
happy life, and happy heart
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
youtube-ing it up
so as you all probably don't know what so ever ...lol...i've been trying to get my youtube career off the ground
i have 3 different ideas so i dont really know what i want to do plus, i still need to get a charger for my camera....but in the mean time i'm going to get opinions from people
my first idea is make-up
i bet all of you saw that coming lol
but i wanted to do make-up vids for ppl with darker skin and smaller wallets (drug store products)
then i'll do some vids for hair of course...I have really short hair in the back and shoulder length hair in the front...never been able to find any help on youtube for my random hair so now i'm going to make some lovely styles on my own
the other idea was to have a talk show...but make it funny
anything that bothers teens, all the issues that they go through, celebrity news that they'd like to know all that lovely jazz....
finally the last idea, was the the news
so the last two are kinda the same but not
thethird idea is something like abc news at 5 kinda thingy
i'm going to make the weather funny
like its raining crickets...no its not gish, you really believed me lol
somthing more funny on videos lol
i have 3 different ideas so i dont really know what i want to do plus, i still need to get a charger for my camera....but in the mean time i'm going to get opinions from people
my first idea is make-up
i bet all of you saw that coming lol
but i wanted to do make-up vids for ppl with darker skin and smaller wallets (drug store products)
then i'll do some vids for hair of course...I have really short hair in the back and shoulder length hair in the front...never been able to find any help on youtube for my random hair so now i'm going to make some lovely styles on my own
the other idea was to have a talk show...but make it funny
anything that bothers teens, all the issues that they go through, celebrity news that they'd like to know all that lovely jazz....
finally the last idea, was the the news
so the last two are kinda the same but not
thethird idea is something like abc news at 5 kinda thingy
i'm going to make the weather funny
like its raining crickets...no its not gish, you really believed me lol
somthing more funny on videos lol
My Un-realistic Wishlist
well i've noticed that i have been wanting lots of thing that i can't have
i wanted to win jinahchae's valentines day contest but i dont have a camera and my bf is on the other side of town....
also i really wanted to win because i only have a blush brush....so winning would have helped me alot.
but i'm not going to sit here and explain everything i'm just going to list everything that i want so here goes all the things i can't afford or just can't do period.
meet fafinettex3
be friends with jinahchae...supposed to be moving to newyork, so i'd love to know someone
be on tv...just like the news or something,just so i can say, that was me ha ha
have a make over
be alittle famous on youtube....but that brings me to the next
get a working camera....fujifilm Z(or a charger for the awesome one i already have)
meet cast and crew of the Real Housewives of Orange County
Get an iphone or itouch
get the kat von d make line at sephora
get make up brushes better than the one i have...and other cleansers and stuff for my face(my morning routine is...wash face with washcloth...the end) :(
find a job that will pay rent...yeah, not being able to pay rent sux
buy the pink squire guitar...$119 dont have that much to just toss on a guitar
get an apartment somewhere other than maryland...hate it here
buy a coach purse...always wanted one, got mom one for christmas but she never got mine like she promised
visit california :)
go out to dinner in a really cool resturant...
okay, so does anyone know what to do about the makeover...i think i'm going to give myself a make over because of money
... so i want to give myself a pedicure
manicure
hair
make-up
tweeze brows
and anything else anyone can think of
i can't do french tip on my nails because of my job
and nothing too crazy for make up because of the same reason
so i have no idea what to really do
i'm afraid to do my own brows
i can do it, i have before but it hurts too much when i do it myself...idk why
lol
so if i get paid i can probably just get that done myself and do everything else on a budget.
i wanted to win jinahchae's valentines day contest but i dont have a camera and my bf is on the other side of town....
also i really wanted to win because i only have a blush brush....so winning would have helped me alot.
but i'm not going to sit here and explain everything i'm just going to list everything that i want so here goes all the things i can't afford or just can't do period.
meet fafinettex3
be friends with jinahchae...supposed to be moving to newyork, so i'd love to know someone
be on tv...just like the news or something,just so i can say, that was me ha ha
have a make over
be alittle famous on youtube....but that brings me to the next
get a working camera....fujifilm Z(or a charger for the awesome one i already have)
meet cast and crew of the Real Housewives of Orange County
Get an iphone or itouch
get the kat von d make line at sephora
get make up brushes better than the one i have...and other cleansers and stuff for my face(my morning routine is...wash face with washcloth...the end) :(
find a job that will pay rent...yeah, not being able to pay rent sux
buy the pink squire guitar...$119 dont have that much to just toss on a guitar
get an apartment somewhere other than maryland...hate it here
buy a coach purse...always wanted one, got mom one for christmas but she never got mine like she promised
visit california :)
go out to dinner in a really cool resturant...
okay, so does anyone know what to do about the makeover...i think i'm going to give myself a make over because of money
... so i want to give myself a pedicure
manicure
hair
make-up
tweeze brows
and anything else anyone can think of
i can't do french tip on my nails because of my job
and nothing too crazy for make up because of the same reason
so i have no idea what to really do
i'm afraid to do my own brows
i can do it, i have before but it hurts too much when i do it myself...idk why
lol
so if i get paid i can probably just get that done myself and do everything else on a budget.
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