Wiccan Ways

Just in case you didn't know I'm a witch...and before you get all like WHAT!?!?!?!?
Its not what you see on t.v. and all that stuff...but because i dont feel like explaining all i'm going to get to the point. I had my first full moon ritua; tonight. It was great. I feel rejuvinated phsycally, other than the fact that its one in the morning... but mentally...or more emotionally i feel kinda upset. My boyfriend is actually my High Priest. He was the first person i ever went in depth with as far as my religion goes. And he also happened to be wiccan. But I wanted him to be there. I wanted him to guide me. I wanted to talk to him and hold him because he makes everything okay. it really makes me sad that I'm not near him. I just want to cry and even throw up sometimes when he isnt around. I haven't made any new friends where I am at all. I'm supposed to be going go to see him but the way my luck is I probably wont see him at all. Then it'll be another two weeks before i can even try to see him. and its never guareenteed....
I know that he doesn't have any gems or crystals so i was going to by him a pouch of mini ones. That way when he does magic he can think of me...plus there is a place that has some really nice polished and tumbled ones that would be great to get him...
if i do i was going to put a ring in the pouch and ask him to marry me...but he would never accept....
he says its because i'm the female and he is old fashion...but sometimes it hurts my feelings because i don't think he will ever propose. I know we are young but engagments are meant to be a day. they are meant to take some time. I guess i'm just scared that this one might get away...but what can i say I'm in love and i dont want anyone to take him away...ever
not even NY