A Boyfriend Update...

So as many of you may or may not know that my boyfriend and I haven't actually been officaially for like 2 onths now.
So...we broke up last Friday...it was extra stupid but it had to be done. We were going through some things and I just really felt that if i didn't so something about it then we were going to continue to go through all of the same things...and thats just too much for me.
I spend about 90% of my life at his house and I was just wondering if maybe he could spare a moment to be with my family and things. The holidays are coming up and I just really don't  wanna be with my family and they are wondering where the hell he is. But anyway...we ended up back together yesterday.
the point is i just wanted you to know that we broke up and got back together....Plus i just think that we just need to go slow.
Anyway I'll give you more later...ttfn

Frustration To The Max

I know that I said I'd have pictures...but my BF didn't hook up the web came for me. i don't think he really wanted me to  get my nose pierced in the first place.
I really am sorry that the decisions I make make other people upset, but I'm not sad for making them.
If I never did anything that I wanted then how on earth could I ever make myself happy?
I just wouldn't now would I?
I know that the ideal thing would be to make someone happy...and they make you happy. Then everyone lives all nice a happy....you know, ever after.
But that just doesn't seem to be the case anymore. There are less and less people to fall in love.
It is really starting to piss me off.

I really want to love but there is no way that I can love.
All the people that love me I don't love back...at least not in that way and then vice versa. i can;t keep playing games with men...(and a few women)
I want more that anything just to fall in love and have the cutest little house and most adorable children...but what can I do?
I'm just not happy whatsoever.

The only thing I'm happy with is my home life.
but other than that I can't say that men, or work or anything else is really doing it for me.
I have some friends that I think wouldn't care if i dies either way, and my step father is acting as if i don't exsist...but on the up side mydad has been answering his phone whenever I call. We never talk to long, but thats how my dad is <3
I'm just glad that we have a better relationship. As far as my stepdad it just sucks because he calls my brother and my brother says how he won't get off the phone and how he just assk him 101 questions.

But what can I say? I'm not his kid.
Fail

Anyway, my boyfriend not boyfriend person just seems to hate me....I know that no one is perfect, but it really get under my skin when I ask him to do me favors and he just declines like i asked him to jump off a bridge...but it hurts even more when I ask him to and he responds as if I never said a word. As if all I did was ask him to breathe....
Some ppl may think, well thats nice, you mean he does it so willlingly because doing something for you and breathing go hand-in-hand...but that's not it
not at all
It's as if i'm not there
and Like the dumbass that I am I asked him to move in with me this summer.
I don't know why i'd do such a thing
maybe because I have no life and all I know on a regular basis is him
but it doesn't matter: He said no

Someone please tell me what the hell is wrong with me?
it doesn't matter.
At a party i talked to a friend of mine....Our story lines never cross (lol)
and he told me to listen to my heart as much as i can.
I have no idea what to do at this point
I feel like I would miss him if I left him, but if I stayed I'd be miserable

from the outside looking in it's hard to understand but from the inside looking out its hard to explain

NOSE PIERCING!!!

Okay, so my friend finally pierced my nose yesterday.
yay me!!!!!!
So I'm super extra happy that it's finally done and I don't have to worry about non sense anymore. I don't have to feel trapped or like I'm waiting for someone to do something. I can now leave and go as I please...sometimes I just wanted to leave my surrounding but I had to wait for her and things just kept getting delayed...I'm sorry but I just hate being tied down by things...especially people. What if I had something to do. Just because I'm currently without job doesn't mean that I don't have important things to do with my day... Yeah, I'm a BOSS
lol
So i guess that's all I have to have to say about that...in other news.....
I'm going to start learning how to dance with my boyfriend not boyfriend person. I've always wanted to learn how to dance and never got the chance so I'm extra excited to do so now.
I want to break dance and I think I'm going to stick to hip hop dancing., I was told that My popping was actually kinda good. I can also belly dance and now I'm trying to get into shuffling. I think that dancing at raves are super fun. Now I wanna make sure I don't look extra stupid
So everyone wish me luck...not like anyone reads my blog anyway, so just pretend that you care at least

Obsessed

So almost all my life I've been Obsessed over the Asian culture. i think that they have many traditions and foods and things that are just to die for... So I bought a bento box like 2 years ago...well actually I bought 4. 2 pinks 2 blues. # for my friends and 1 for me. I have no idea if they still use theirs but I don't ever use mine...one, because I never have anything to put in there and two because I have no elastic band that goes over it so it doesn't open. It is also pretty small so I think that I'm going to invest in another one....But anyway I never knew how to make the hard boiled eggs into little shapes. I just found a site that told me how. So i think I have finally found my direction for my blog...
Have an entry about the different foods and styles of bento boxes. The history of them and the food typically put in them. Once I get the money for a camera, go out get one and show you guys the different foods I make each week. Then once I start getting more bento boxes showing you my adventures to getting a collections started <3

That sounds a super awesome idea yay!!!!
First thing though is how to make the eggs into shapes...this is for my own personal purposes only, because I'm not home and I have no where to write this down on...but I can always come back to my blog.

How to use Easy Boiled-Egg Shapers:

1. Hard-boil your egg.
2. Peel the egg while it is still hot.
3. Place the egg in the mold.
4. Leave the egg in the mold in cold water for 10-15 minutes.
5. Voila!

NO PIERCING!!!

So the friend that was supposed to pierce my nose fell asleep and woke up just in time...to be late...to school today, we technically yesterday, cuz it's 12:09am

but yeah, I again have no pictures and nothing to say about the happenings. This would've been my second time getting it done so I can give some kind of advice on the process and the after care, but that would have been one really nice full fat entry if everything would have happened at one time and not all over the place. I'm mostly ranting about it because I would actually like for all of this to be done and over with because I don't like to wait and I would like to show it off.
And not just  because of those reasons, but because I want to be able to say that I have it and not have to worry about her leaving or not seeing her for a while. She doesn't live near me. She just stays in the area sometimes. Also I gave her my money already. I was gonna wait but she said just to give it to her so she can eat and we call it even...So I'm waiting for this to be done so I can get my moneys worth and not feel like I'm getting jipted off....That's not really a word but we all know that really...
lol
so I think that we should all see this as a lesson learned...don't let friends do stuff

Delay

Sorry about the delay on the pic. I'm at my boyfriends house and his friend is supposed to pierce my nose but she hasn't been in the mood. It's making me a little upset. Like she doesn't wanna waste her needle on me or something...but I know that isn't true because we love each other. So maybe when everyone wakes up we can do it. The point is I like to blog but you can't if you always run out of stuff to write about. Well the next post will be pretty lame and only consist of pics of the new piecing because I already did my Harry Potter review. I didn't want to make everyone wait so long for that...So that went up yesterday and the pix will go up when I can put them up

quick updat.....I'm getting a puppy. I think it should be tonight when I go home...if I go home. It's going to be a chorkie....or a chi-orkie <3
A yorkie+ chihuahua=yay

R.I.P. Diamond Rose
10/05-06/10

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Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Pt 1

The 7th instalment of the Harry potter movie franchise has made its; mark on the world and it's about time that I review it.
Part 1 of 2 was absolutely amazing in my (bias) opinion.
There was less romance and way more action. The best trio in the history tries each others patience, learns each others past and soothes each others  sacrifices.
In this movies we meet another piece of the Wesley family, see the Grangers one more time, and explore life as a Potter.
This movie takes place outside of Hogwarts where our heroes will have to find the horcruxes and destroyed them before our enemy finds out.
Many old faces come to help this exciting plot unfold. Many die, many learn, but in the end only one can live....


Grafix...4/5
Character development...5/5
Plot...5/5
Overall experience...5/5

My biggest heart break of the movie was that it was a to be continued, but other than that i think everyone should go see this movie. I feel in love. it held my attention from beginning to end....my boyfriend on the other hand is about to have a foot in his head if he doesn't leave the computer alone and stop making it change different colors.

Also check out...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EC2tmFVNNE

And THE FUNNY ONE <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MahTKZDHXaA

And for those of you who still haven't seen this...WARNING!!! LANGUAGE!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTHn5oFPmi8