Yule Time

Okay so today is yule.
I didn't do much because I live in a not so pagan house. My family isn't super religous but I didn't want to go through all of the blah blah. So to anyone out there that is in the broom closet, or out but still confused about others feeling like I am here are some of the things I did today, plus some extra things that you can do. Just some sugfestions is all.

1. have a moment under the misletoe to yourself(just walk under it with the goddess in mind)
2. light a candle(if you don't have an yule apprpriate ones i don't think the goddess will mind, sure she'll understand)
3. sing
4. decorate the yule tree(if ur family already has up a christmas tree, the tend to it;trim it, rearrange something. I'm sure no one will notice at this point)
5. Have sunflower seeds, and share some with the birds.
6. make a donation to the local shelter
7. bake(unless you're like us and are re doing the kitchen
8. read. anything, something that moves you. i love harry potter. love the magical theme too. Sweep series is supposed to be a great pagan series
9. collect pine cones. that can be fun. make up a games, or just do it to enjoy nature. ur parent's could still be nosy if ur an indoor-y type though
10. and i feel the simplest one of all....u don't have to feel weird with ur parent asking about you lighting candles(my mom has issues with fire and I'm almost 22) or u singing too loud. or maybe you stood under the mistletoe a second too long. this one is so easy Eat an Apple <3

Easy little top ten things to do to celebrate and make it around the rents and their raydar.
Do one or all.

just thought I'd put up a post about yule because I understand being a pagan teen. i'm not a teenager anymore but thats not the point lol.
I'm not that far off. Yes I live in a christain house and I've always loved christmas time, so i'm not saying that people should stop celebrating and doing things the way they know, but incorporate the 21st and the 25th together <3

and I'm looking up information on Kwanzaa because I know it has something to do with African Americas, or coloreds or however you want to look at that. Forgive me for my ignorance but I will start my research soon and maybe i'll be celebrating that too. SO watch out.

Hope all is well with everyone and )O( Blessed  Be <3

Oh Christmas Tree, OH CHRISTMAS TREE!!!

SO here I have a couple of whosa whatzits from putting up the tree and what not. Don't tell my mom or my brother. I think they have issues with being on the web sometimes

When we piced out our tree

The tree man tying it to the roof of moms car.

He was a n00b. The boss lady kept calling for people to help him and all that

it was pretty funny but i feel like he felt otherwise (poor tree guy)

Look at it!

It's so awesome and beautiful. i know

the bro messing in moms hair. Forgot I had my cam handy did ya?

Charlie(my mom) looks like she isn't paying us any attention

lol(she says she has weird kids)

This picture makes it looks so short. Well i can't do anything about that but i can say that it's not that shot and its not that light looking. Well none of the picture do it justice really. The lighting was terrible, plus that lights on that tree and it was getting dark outside and all these factors. so i deleted most of my tree pix

Charlie looking at the tree. M aking sure her art looks perfect

My mom is the Queen of Christmas

Why is my tree sideways?

Some vid of the tree making fun. Don't know where most of my footage went but here ya go. Us being us.

Okay well i hope that everyone enjoys my family and the weird things that we say. We don't do too many things as much as say whatever come to mind. my mother mostly. I really do hope that everyone has an awesome holiday weather it's yule christmas hannakah or kwanza, and even if you don't believe but you celebrate new years as a factual thing then hope everyone is well. No drunk driving please, and if anyone is getting different weather than I am, then I hope everyone is careful on the icy roads and staying safe and warm.

As always to anyone that takes the time out to look at my blog I am truly grateful that you decided to spend you life with me today <3

Winter



top5 12/21/11

1. the reson-hoobastank ( I kow that this is old but I find myself blasting this lately)
2. Christmas don't be late-chipmunks
3. Hallelujah-Paramore
4. Never too Late-three days grace
5. Rudolph the red nose reindeer-that snow man in the movie(lol)

Christmas Coming

I have all this Christmas stuff that i have to upload and I've been so lacking and what not. So what I'm going to do is post as much as I can while i have my moms laptop and have it all queued to post sometime tonight and tomorrow. I have vids from putting up the christmas tree and I have some pics of the final product and an outfit of the day. Also I'm going to have a quick tutorial on christmas morning makeup
because if you're like my family and my younger brother wakes you up at 4 am because he can't sleep and we go to open the gifts all early and your mom wants to take picture of you on like 2 hours sleep you want those pictures to not be shown to your future husband and kids of you when you were 12-22 and you look like hell did it, then you might want to follow some of the tips i have in that vids comin up
<3
Hope you guys are doing great and have a safe season

Because Boobs

SO because I was supposed to put up my top five and I have really wrote any of them down. i always think I'm going to remember. Whya hasn't anyone told me that my memmory isn't that awesome. amh
so Yeah to apologize, i'd like to share this awesomeness with everyone.
http://youtu.be/dcYlytyuKsc

Wish List

My mother keeps asking me what i want for christmas and my birthday and I don't know what to tell her. I don't want to say things that cost a lot of money, but thats kinda all that i want for real. But because I've been trying to get my thoughts straight i thought I'd list everything here

1. T.v.
2. Laptop
3. car
4. gift card to barnes and noble
5. gift card to hot topic
6. gift card to sephora
7. clothes
8. purse (i want a lv speedy)
9. Harry Potter lego years 5-7
10. Nimbus 2001

Yeah, other than that I can't think about anything. i know that most of the things on there are expensive. She doesn't like hot topic so thats a no. She doesn't wanna get me a laptop and the car is probably a hell no. She doesn't think i need more clothes so yea. Sephora will probably be like $20. she doesn't know that make up is expensive as crap so yea. and she def wont get me a speedy so she'll get something else. and the nimbus is a no because i should be grown out of potter right now. so yeah. u tell me what that leaves. i should just be more girly right and ask for like perfume and vick secret crap and more shoes. I want the 5's my jordan but the expensive so she probably won't pay 150 for no damn shoes. this is why i don't ever actually ask for anything for my birthday. 10 days after christmas means u aint really getting anything anyway. :(
well thats that.
I have a more detailed wish list like that make i spesifically want but i know that my mother wouldn't know where to find some of the stuff and she isn't buying anything online she said. so I'll probably put my stuff on a visa and get stuff from elf's website and probably get hot topic stuff anyway. Plus i want an iphone. that would freaking amazing. so yeah. just waiting to see what happens reaally.m iaubfjnvalkdfnv   blah. that is how i feel. I don't like asking for stuff. and i don't like when ppl ask me what i want because the answer is harry potter. and when u don't like that i like harry potter because i'm turning 22 then i don't know what to tell you

asian Fail

Okay, so i know that i was supposed to post for all of my asian inpired things, but i just fail at picture taking. when i went back to post i ended up deleting most pictures because the lighten was terrible, or someone complained about not wanted to be put on the internet. blah. so I'm truly sorry for the delay. but my top 5 will bw up and i can promise that it will be interesting. My music taste is all over the place so yeah

2 Rings

Don't hate how when u call someone...like your boyfriend, and you get 2 rings and then the voice mail.
Well nigga what the hell you doing? Why the fuck did i just go to voicemail? Then he forever has a n excuse as to why. He was on the other line and when he tried to answer the phone he hit the wrong button by mistake or some crap. That shit just fucking kills me.

I have been trying and i son't understand why its just not paying off. I like to see results and if i don't see them i wont give them. It may seem selfish but thats just me> he knows that
when i'm happy he is happy so yea....whatever, i'm trying to go over there tonight and get over this dumb shit, and i'm going to make him my sexy slave bitch woot!!!
lol
but i'm not kidding though. about to get that good dick
i'm kiddin

<3 winter

My Top 5

I haven't done this in a while but this is my top 5 for this week

1. versaEmerge-lost tree
2. youtube-teach me how to dobby
3. lacuna coil- trip the darkness
4. big sean ft. nicki minaj- dance ass
5. simple and clean- utada hikara

I know that i may repeat some songs sometimes and i hope i don't get too repetative, but its just that songs that stick out that week. I may have some songs that i just couldn't get rid of that week. They just stay with me all month.
But most of there are songs that are completely new to me because i've just had music choice on all week just trying to get back into my zone.

Simple and clea is an old fav. love j=pop and soundtracks
the teach me how to dobby was from when i found tons of wrock songs and i love lacuna coil so i looked up some new stuff

everything else on this list i kinda just found and i thought i'd share.

Really There

Whenever I'm having issues or feeling down my boyfriend always seems to be there when i need him. Like i don't call him or anything he just knows. He is just in this great mood that is so infectious. its kkinda annoying actually because whnever i need him other times it seems like i can't find him but when i NEED him and no one else can make me happy he is ther for me and i love it. I feel like sometimes i should just learn to get over myself,
I know right. I must practice what i preach. I think that if i got ever myself sometimes then we;d fight less. I just don't know what to do, but i know that he is an amazing guy. He's a little laggin on the bf duties but he is trying....well i hope he is. I hinestly don't see the trying p[art, but i think that if i get my shit together and we both put in some effort we could be super chillz. We are very similar and i think thats why we aren't so good together sometimes

we are stubborn. I know that i am, his problem is that he doesn't think that he is, but whatever. I don't have to worry about that too much longer, because i think that if one of us changes then the other will be more happy to do certain things. And because i know that he can make me happy i am more than willing to. the thing up til now is that i just didn't know how to go about doin that. I'm a human and we don't like change so i haven't actually been doing all that great, but i feel like i should get and e for effort at least right?
idk, maybe. well I' hope i'm not boring anyone with my wack ass post, i just wanted to talk to someone about it. I just had a kinda off day and i called him and he was extra happy and we "tumblr'd" together over the phone. I love checking out his blog, and i love posting things on my tumblr that i know he likes, like owlies and baby animals, and aweoms cars and certain games and other thing like that. I know that he knows me well. we are just such weird people that sometimes i don't know what to do with all the awesome in one room. I think that we have been coming into ourselves lately so i really want to do that.

I'll have better pictures and things up this week I  might even give you guys a sneak peak at our awesome x-mas tree ness because we have 2
yes we have 2 trees because...well i honestly don't know why we have 2 but we have the space for 2 this year so we have 2 damn tree. get over yourself.