A KICK!!!

I've had  whole lot on my mind and going on in my life and because its not just my bussiness to tell I feel some way about posting everything so thats why I've been M.I.A. recently and for that I apologize so since something just happened I figured I tell you about it.
The baby kicked. They baby has kicked before but I could only feel it on the inside or ouldn't really tell what was happening, but i was laying here on the computer with my cell sitting on my stomach and i felt a kick and  bam, phone was sliding off my belly
It's really the cutest thing ever. I've been so sad and depressed and lonely and the only happy thing is my unborn child. :(
I know thats pretty sad but its also kinda happy too i guess.
I just cant wait for my baby to get here

Baby Names

Okay, so I really thought that my first post on baby names would be a nice one...nope, not at all. I wanted to think of names, and he said it was too early. I couldn't stop my brain from coming up with names until there were no more. And I came up with names that I was hell bent on. Now here we are, he doesn't like my names we've gone through a couple of them, decided on initials to narrow it down blah blah blah, and now we are having a last name dilemma. I've always wanted my kids to have my last name. Even if I was married, I just love my last name. I wanted to hyphenate it, and if i got married I'd do the same to mine. Now we're having a big issue on that and it's really bothering me. At first we decided to have both. his first because it just sounded better. But then later he comes to me and says my mom thinks that my name should be last because it should be the last last name. The Last of the LAST names. I said that's nice. Because whenever someone stresses me out his response is its not their kid and there opinions don't matter. But when u come to me a few days later and ask have I thought about your question then you make it seem like it was your idea or you had some feelings about the decision  not you mother. SO now he is saying that his father feels like my name shouldn't be in it at all. But you wanna turn down the names that I've fallen in love with and my last name and I'm not trying to argue or stress and I'm learning to pick my battles but something I feel so strongly about and you're not even being supportive of my first names but you think I'm going to let you family be the dominant reigning one? NO.
 If I could be like Lorelei from Gilmore Girls and make her/him a junior with my name not his I would d. But i don't particularly like my first name to well anyway. I hate the way women are treated when it comes to family making and name say. I'm not married, I was not doing this to expand on the family that I've built. Meaning, I don't have his last name so neither shall my children. Spanish countries have more than one last name so why can't I and my children.
I know that I'm basically just repeating myself at this point but I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling. I'm hurt, sad frustrated and a little angry.
I'm hurt because i feel like all the work that I've done creating life doesn't matter. I'm sad because I just want someone to say, okay, I know that I work all day but she can't do anything because she's sitting in the house making a baby. SO of course all i have is baby on the brain. i have nothing else to do. I'm frustrated because I just keep repeating myself but no one seems to be taking anything in. And I'm angry because him and I had this conversation as parents and now other people get to influence his opinions but not mine. If my parents opinions at the end of the day don't matter neither do yours.

Week 16

Yea, so i know that I have been M.I.A. lately but that's because of the pregnancy. I've just been sitting around that house doing nothing. With that being said most expect more post since i have all the time in the world, but honestly i wouldn't have anything to say or do. I literally lay around all day long.But I just came from the doctors a few day ago so i figure now that I'm getting along in the pregnancy i have more things to say and do so i figured I'd share.
I discovered that about 80% of Americans have HPV but don't know it because its a dormant virus and doesn't do anything. Well I'm apart of that 80% and because I'm pregnant it decided it wanted to flare up so...yay me. I don't honestly know what that means for me or the baby because my doctor said that its not doing anything right now and i just have to be monitored more closely now. For those that don't know HPV can lead to Cervical Cancer...
On another note I started my pregnancy at 183lbs, by the time i found out i was pregnant i was 170. At my last check up i weighed in at 149.5 lbs. So i have to have that closely monitored as well. Its not doing any harm to the baby right now as far as I know. The baby is getting all of the nutrients it needs from me, but i just have to make sure I'm getting all that i need. And when people force u to eat when you aren't hungry. I do need more calories admittedly, but I can eat things with more calories and still eat the same amount of food my doctor said so eating when you're not hungry is never fun. Trust me.
I'm also thinking about vlogging on my YouTube for the rest of this journey but I'm not really sure how i feel about that. I'm not that popular on YouTube so I don't really anyone in my family being comfortable on camera and what not. So basically I'd be like saaammage with her hunbun, but that would be everyone.
But I feel like that's the best way for me to document everything because I never remember to write stuff down and I don't have any pregnancy memories or anything like that. Besides I do have a lot coming up really soon, Ever since my last visit to the doctor she wants to monitor a lot of things.
I have to go get blood before two weeks is over. I have an ultra sound after 3 weeks. I have another appointment with my doctor in a week from today. and i have another one scheduled in about 3 weeks so that she can go over the results of everything from all the outside doctors. Plus i have to schedule and appointment with a eye doctor and dentist because all of these things are important while pregnant as well. And i should probably find a primary doctor for everyday stuff too just to make sure all of that is in order.
All the while never getting any sleep, yet sleeping all day and since i can't stand up for more than 30-45 min at a time i basically don't do anything or go anywhere and I had to quit my job. So now I'm in the process of finding a new job that i can sit and still manage. Like a Secretary or something. SO if anyone has any idea that would be amazing

Sorry I don't have any pictures and this is just a heavily worded post. I have one picture on instagram and thats it. Maybe next time there will be pictures. Til next time