30 DAY WEDDING!!!

We are getting married on July 31st and I am so excited. I figured since none of my videos work I'll be able to do a wedding series here on my blog. I will be giving as many details as o can as things change and get up to date. This is a real wedding on a budget. Not this budget that's like $5000 or even $1000. We are throwing a $200 wedding. Yes that was $200. Everything will be handed me downs,diy, and tons of group effort on the food. $25 for the marriage certificate $35 for the civil ceremony $60 for the hotel $0 for the reception $0 cash for food(help, coupons, etc) So far that's $120 so we have $80 left for diy projects and decor. Everyone is.being told to bring lawn chairs, and both grand parents have tables. The event is BYOB, and will be taken place outside so there will be yummy sliders and fries which is so us. The colors was the hard part. We had decided that i would do all the planning because it's such a short time that we had to be completely decisive at all times. I wanted a black and white theme with rainbow colors but when he found out he was against it. So it's not all whimsical now it's all black and white and more glittery and twinkling and elegant and i even pushed the time back a few hours so it's all beautiful at night. That was a big stress but i wanted him to be happy as well. The groom is to often forgotten. Only because we have a month was it such a hassle but i love him and he deserves to be excited about the wedding and not just the marriage. One of my best friends is a baker and i plan asking her to make the cake free of charge and I'll be able to get all the supplies for free for her. That leaves cake decisions, decor decisions, and diy planning to go. I'll post my self made time line in a few days and from then on I'll keep you posted and up to date with the timeline and pictures. Pictures of what idk. probably just the diy projects and things.

Wedding

My fiancee and I got engaged on December 12 and we were supposed to get married before my baby bump started to show. So now I don't know what we are doing. I hate to bring it up to him because I want to let him be a man and make his own designs but at the same time if history is indication, then i can't actually expect him to do on his own.I'll see what happens on our anniversary (July 9th) and our engagement anniversary(December 12th). Basically I want to be surprised. I just want him to show that he put some effort into doing something nice, not just money cuz that doesn't mean anything, and not just run me because being in a serious relationship means your time is already mine. I don't know what i should do because i feel like as the man i don't want to take anything from him. I want him to still have his manhood when we're done. And i don't want to rush him into anything but his words are so confusing. Actions speak louder than words though and his actions aren't saying anything. Idk.

Wedding

My fiancee and I got engaged on December 12 and we were supposed to get married before my baby bump started to show. So now I don't know what we are doing. I hate to bring it up to him because I want to let him be a man and make his own designs but at the same time if history is indication, then i can't actually expect him to do on his own.I'll see what happens on our anniversary (July 9th) and our engagement anniversary(December 12th). Basically I want to be surprised. I just want him to show that he put some effort into doing something nice, not just money cuz that doesn't mean anything, and not just run me because being in a serious relationship means your time is already mine. I don't know what i should do because i feel like as the man i don't want to take anything from him. I want him to still have his manhood when we're done. And i don't want to rush him into anything but his words are so confusing. Actions speak louder than words though and his actions aren't saying anything. Idk.

Another YouTube Video Fail

So i had another tutorial that was no good, but i keep on pushing. I don't have a day job so i stay home with my daughter. My fiancee just started doing some work for his dad. Hopefully this will last a whole so we can save up for this apartment. We have to move before the second baby gets here. I would love to stay. I love my M-I-L and S-I-L but being in the 3rd room in a 3 bedroom means the 4 of us is not a thing. We're going to be getting a place with my S-I-L best friend. He's like family. I think the friendship balance is good too. You never want to move in with your closest friends or family. But i think the match we have is perfect. I'm working on my diy-ing so that i can open the website. I have to come up with a mission statement but it's hard to think about my specialty. I guess it would be that everything is handmade or thrifts, so it's all one of a kind and generally affordable. At this point i guess my might be a blogger guru instead of YouTube. Unfortunately i don't have the proper camera, storage, or software to do this right now. What should i do for my daughter's birthday. The budget is tight and i don't want to make a big fuss because it's her first and she won't remember it at all. Plus, it is on independence day so everyone will have plans. I figured a small get together with a couple people with kids and what not. I'm just rambling on about my boring life. Gonna go watch some saaammage vlogs with my daughter.

Prices

Just like most new artist I'm earning my keep, so all prices are currently as follows. Weddings..............free Prom......................free Girls night out.......free Date night.............free "Everyday"............free Consultation.........free Lashes..................free Banquets...............free Graduation............free Everything right now is...for thee FREE

Trying

So I've tried to keep up with my not so awesome make up career. I've had tons of random things going on in my life so now that i have a working phone and tons of apps I'm going to blog more often and try my had at...CELL PHONE VIDS... Yea I'm gonna do tutorials from my phone. Honestly i don't even want to do YouTube anymore just because the t.v.commercials and what not. It seems mainstream now.
i don't want people thinking that I'm following the band wagon. I've been into YouTube since about 2006 so..... but hopefully i get a couple followers. In the mean time here are some photos from life My daughtet and fiancee Mother's day Selfies Stay mugging I know my post are always some update but this is for real. I can't wait around to provide for my family so i want to do VIDS so i have practice. Plus i , need start doing stuff during the day.but I'll get to that later So hope to hear from me more Ttyl

Testing Testing One Two Three...

I love blogging from my phone because i can use the talk features and talk to you guys and insert and edit after and then automatically upload with the app. Perfect.now i will be able to upload and also do short YouTube videos and pix on instagram. Nothing is going to be as great as it could be but i won't let you guys down anymore. I will have an update tomorrow.not sure if it will be here on my blog or if it'll be on YouTube. I'll decide

Kicking It Up

My baby girl has been kicking up a storm lately and I'm so glad to know that she is active and healthy. Don't know if I told you about the ultra sound that I had but we found out it was a girl so i'm super excited to finally know. It seems as though now she has a name and an identity(kinda) that she is just as active as can be.
She moves around the most around night time, especially when i'm laying down. I'm trying to figure out her patterns and what not so this is excited. She is a little daddy's already. Every time someone mentions daddy she just starts moving all over again. And when I'm on the phone with him, and when I'm around him. So basically anything associated with her father and she is moving and grooving. I think she's having a disco.
She had the hiccups earlier. I think she's had them before but I was never really sure, but that's because I'm never really sure about anything since this is my first child so what can I say.

When went to go visit daddy this week and he felt her move. He was excited and that made me all the more joyful. His mom told him it was probably gas. I think she is trying to burst every little bubble that this pregnancy has to share. I think she liked me before i got pregnant, now i think she feels i'm ruining her sons life and for that I apologize, but I won't be sorry for being the happiest I've been.

Life is starting to get really crazy and I don't know what I'm going to do, but i do know that i've got to  figure it out sooner rather than later. I've got a great man by my side though so we'll see what happens. Between the two of us I don't think there is anything that we can't get done

A KICK!!!

I've had  whole lot on my mind and going on in my life and because its not just my bussiness to tell I feel some way about posting everything so thats why I've been M.I.A. recently and for that I apologize so since something just happened I figured I tell you about it.
The baby kicked. They baby has kicked before but I could only feel it on the inside or ouldn't really tell what was happening, but i was laying here on the computer with my cell sitting on my stomach and i felt a kick and  bam, phone was sliding off my belly
It's really the cutest thing ever. I've been so sad and depressed and lonely and the only happy thing is my unborn child. :(
I know thats pretty sad but its also kinda happy too i guess.
I just cant wait for my baby to get here

Baby Names

Okay, so I really thought that my first post on baby names would be a nice one...nope, not at all. I wanted to think of names, and he said it was too early. I couldn't stop my brain from coming up with names until there were no more. And I came up with names that I was hell bent on. Now here we are, he doesn't like my names we've gone through a couple of them, decided on initials to narrow it down blah blah blah, and now we are having a last name dilemma. I've always wanted my kids to have my last name. Even if I was married, I just love my last name. I wanted to hyphenate it, and if i got married I'd do the same to mine. Now we're having a big issue on that and it's really bothering me. At first we decided to have both. his first because it just sounded better. But then later he comes to me and says my mom thinks that my name should be last because it should be the last last name. The Last of the LAST names. I said that's nice. Because whenever someone stresses me out his response is its not their kid and there opinions don't matter. But when u come to me a few days later and ask have I thought about your question then you make it seem like it was your idea or you had some feelings about the decision  not you mother. SO now he is saying that his father feels like my name shouldn't be in it at all. But you wanna turn down the names that I've fallen in love with and my last name and I'm not trying to argue or stress and I'm learning to pick my battles but something I feel so strongly about and you're not even being supportive of my first names but you think I'm going to let you family be the dominant reigning one? NO.
 If I could be like Lorelei from Gilmore Girls and make her/him a junior with my name not his I would d. But i don't particularly like my first name to well anyway. I hate the way women are treated when it comes to family making and name say. I'm not married, I was not doing this to expand on the family that I've built. Meaning, I don't have his last name so neither shall my children. Spanish countries have more than one last name so why can't I and my children.
I know that I'm basically just repeating myself at this point but I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling. I'm hurt, sad frustrated and a little angry.
I'm hurt because i feel like all the work that I've done creating life doesn't matter. I'm sad because I just want someone to say, okay, I know that I work all day but she can't do anything because she's sitting in the house making a baby. SO of course all i have is baby on the brain. i have nothing else to do. I'm frustrated because I just keep repeating myself but no one seems to be taking anything in. And I'm angry because him and I had this conversation as parents and now other people get to influence his opinions but not mine. If my parents opinions at the end of the day don't matter neither do yours.