update:weight loss

okay...so remeber when i said that i was going to lose weight...?
do you?
okay we it doesn't actually matter if you remeber because i'm taking it back and then i'm putting it back out there just so everyone has heard it from me and not from someone else.

I told myslef that i was going to lose some weight for health reasons...just because i don't really know too much about the things that is in my family history and i don't want to get sick anytime soon...I'm only 20 yrs. old.
I know this is going to sound stupid....but you know how some ppl dont care about the greater risk...not that they are truely ignoring that fact that they can get sick or something but they feel as though that is hasn't be anything personal so its not a threat...
well i think thats how I am...I keep slacking because i haven't be in the direct path of fire as of yet...so i'm going to do this for a more vain reason...
i want to be able to wear a 2 piece this summer. I want to show my boyfriend that i can be super hot in the summer.

that is also a health reason in its own way too
some people just need to feel pretty to have a good time and the more you smile and the more happy you are, you have 15% chance to live a happier healthier life than the average person...
and i believe that...
when i was in middle school i used to feel so ugly and i was rarely ever in a good mood.
i'd always have to hide how i felt about everything
i felt fat and ugly and stupid and none of the guys liked me.
ever since i laft high school i feel much better.
but long story short...everyone needs a reason that will work for them, the same way you need a work out that will work for you....

that brings me to P90X
I dont have it but my friends brother does and he is going to let me borrow it and some days i'm going to work out with him...
that is something that i'm looking forward to
he says that he has fun doing it.............(he has fun doing anything)
tee hee
but he and i are going to be super sexy.
he also want to look awesome sauce for the summer but he just wants to be ripped for the girls
i guess that also has to do with being sad and or lonely
idk...
i just know that for me its more than being pretty, its being healthy and hopefully nothing that runs in the family will get to my kids....

happy life, and happy heart