Okay, so i was goin to do an outfit of the day but I wasn't sure. Then I was absolutely postively sure that i wold but the lighting was bad in the living room and i just can't manage the camera angle right in my room so i said that i'd get someone to help me when i get to where i'm goin. Got there said my hellos and some how got onto the topic of the biggest asshole i know
Well i broke down didn't care...still don't care and all i wanna do is go to sleep. Why haven't i done so? Because I want to talk to him so no sleep for me.
WHy havne't i done the outfit of the day even thoug i'm not doing anything? Because at this point it doesn't matter. I look terrible. All i really cared about was the make up i did today and that crap looks terrible now most likely. i'm too afraid to look at myself in the mirror to tell you the honest truth
I can not believe that I've let myself turn into that person
.....
anyway I messed up. Next time i'm going to figure it out and get it right so that i have some kind of quality post so that when the time comes i don't sit in front of the computer screen and feel this damn stupid. Okay well i'm about to go and decide weather i want you guys to know about my love life or not.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
JamJam/ Ham/ Jammy
One of my friends committed suicide on the 15th of this month. It has taken me this long to post about it for several reasons.
1. We weren't all that close so i didn't want to write anything without thinking it over first.
2.I figured I'd make one large post after the funeral and all
3. I think that i needed to hear what some of our friends said first
So the problem is.....didn't really get to see what anyone said.
why you may ask?
because there will be no funeral. This is blowing my mind right now... She moved to colorado so there is nothing down in Maryland going on. I have a huge problem with that. Her mother was goin got have a memorial and kept pushing it back and pushing it back and now for some reason there isn't goin got be a funeral at all
maybe the memorial is still going to be in december, but i also have a problem with at
Now everyone keeps saying that i need to keep it to myself and get over it, there isn't too much to be done. Since when does Winter keep shit to herself?
I DON'T!
I am very much so aware that i may not be her mother but someone has got to get shit done when a mother doesn't want to act like one
Now J and Koppa put all of their awesomeness together and made a memorial for her, just for the friends so for that I'm happy.
The memorial was aweosme. I didn't take pictures because i thought it might be innappropriate to do so at an event like that.
EVERYONE!!! and I mean everyone pretty much got up and said something.
We shared out joy and out sorrow. Amazing moments with an amazing girl and i really hope that everyone agree with me when i say that was an angel in diguise.
She may have hurt and she may have felt things that us mere mortals did not feel but it was all in the name of the god and goddess. She went through it all as a testiment to who she was and no matter what anyone says she touched so many people in so many ways and she deserves to be relieved of that pain.
SO many people love her and so many ppl will miss her and i just hope that we all come together to be better people for it
I come from a group of friends that were so close in high school and then when most of us left school we fell apart. some of us became different people and we penalized for being our true selves and Never has anyone changed into a better them have I loved them anyless. It's when you critisize and belittle others that has made you the bad guy. So all i ask is that out "family" stop being stupid and get your shit together. No one is going to love you the way that this group does. No one is ever going to care.
So please, stop fighting and love on another because if there is anything that Jam taught us is that it's okay to be yourselves. your real self, or else you'll suffer the same.
and i don't think that any of us can deal with another situation like that
stay together, love one another keep it Kawaii <3 winter
1. We weren't all that close so i didn't want to write anything without thinking it over first.
2.I figured I'd make one large post after the funeral and all
3. I think that i needed to hear what some of our friends said first
So the problem is.....didn't really get to see what anyone said.
why you may ask?
because there will be no funeral. This is blowing my mind right now... She moved to colorado so there is nothing down in Maryland going on. I have a huge problem with that. Her mother was goin got have a memorial and kept pushing it back and pushing it back and now for some reason there isn't goin got be a funeral at all
maybe the memorial is still going to be in december, but i also have a problem with at
Now everyone keeps saying that i need to keep it to myself and get over it, there isn't too much to be done. Since when does Winter keep shit to herself?
I DON'T!
I am very much so aware that i may not be her mother but someone has got to get shit done when a mother doesn't want to act like one
Now J and Koppa put all of their awesomeness together and made a memorial for her, just for the friends so for that I'm happy.
The memorial was aweosme. I didn't take pictures because i thought it might be innappropriate to do so at an event like that.
EVERYONE!!! and I mean everyone pretty much got up and said something.
We shared out joy and out sorrow. Amazing moments with an amazing girl and i really hope that everyone agree with me when i say that was an angel in diguise.
She may have hurt and she may have felt things that us mere mortals did not feel but it was all in the name of the god and goddess. She went through it all as a testiment to who she was and no matter what anyone says she touched so many people in so many ways and she deserves to be relieved of that pain.
SO many people love her and so many ppl will miss her and i just hope that we all come together to be better people for it
I come from a group of friends that were so close in high school and then when most of us left school we fell apart. some of us became different people and we penalized for being our true selves and Never has anyone changed into a better them have I loved them anyless. It's when you critisize and belittle others that has made you the bad guy. So all i ask is that out "family" stop being stupid and get your shit together. No one is going to love you the way that this group does. No one is ever going to care.
So please, stop fighting and love on another because if there is anything that Jam taught us is that it's okay to be yourselves. your real self, or else you'll suffer the same.
and i don't think that any of us can deal with another situation like that
stay together, love one another keep it Kawaii <3 winter
Hang Time Baby!??!!?!
Okay so my mom just braided my hair for me. Like corn rowed it. I don't really care for these kinds of styles but it seems that when ppl keep there hair done then it growns faster...or maybe its because when i have my hair in a bush i notice how slow its growing. idk, so yeah.
My brother is the master of having braided haor...so when he saw that my hair had hang time, he calculated my hair and his and feels that my mom does a better job at my hair than his because of my hang time. I know i have not hair and so i should have no hang time but thats not the case....yo mad for real.
sorry billy
but my hair is much bigger than yours, my hair can walk right through the door with a feeling so pure, its got you screaming back for more!!!!!
I don't know if any one of you know but i cut my hair to near extistion on may and my hair hasn't grown much at all. Like all I had was an inch or so of hair and my brother...well he got hair for days. He'd kill me if i posted pix of him so here are some of my
My brother is the master of having braided haor...so when he saw that my hair had hang time, he calculated my hair and his and feels that my mom does a better job at my hair than his because of my hang time. I know i have not hair and so i should have no hang time but thats not the case....yo mad for real.
sorry billy
but my hair is much bigger than yours, my hair can walk right through the door with a feeling so pure, its got you screaming back for more!!!!!
I don't know if any one of you know but i cut my hair to near extistion on may and my hair hasn't grown much at all. Like all I had was an inch or so of hair and my brother...well he got hair for days. He'd kill me if i posted pix of him so here are some of my
Here is a pic of the screen because i'm a big lame-o
Here is a pic of me where i look really pale for some reason....don't like
Here is me giving the peace and love <3
Showing off the amount of hang time that i thougt i'd never have
Don't you love the gauge I took from the boyfried?
hang time baby!!
=3 fenton
http://youtu.be/_tX75yT8IPc
just a really quick post before i fall asleep
I think that everyone should watch this episode of equals 3
tis hilarious, I personally think the fenton should have his own show. very anti lassie. I can see all the trouble now
just a really quick post before i fall asleep
I think that everyone should watch this episode of equals 3
tis hilarious, I personally think the fenton should have his own show. very anti lassie. I can see all the trouble now
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Make you're own E/S Primer
So all I do is win win win...jk, all I do is surf youtube and I came across this vid in my recommended section. I really think that everyone should go and check it out
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeqT3InFN-s&feature=colike
so yea. it's cheap and easy and awesome if u have all the ingredients. save you tons of money. I'll have some test photos up soon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeqT3InFN-s&feature=colike
so yea. it's cheap and easy and awesome if u have all the ingredients. save you tons of money. I'll have some test photos up soon
Some cleaning
someone please give me encouragement
does anyone know what i can do?
Okay so what i habe to do is not edit my vids put them on youtube, and then link to them. piece of cake :( except that is hassle for you guys so i'm going te back to my only ways and be a heavy pix chick :)
XD Love taking pix. I tried to do the vid thing cuz it seemed like what ppl liked but i've always felt pix with a caption on each was more personal....I need to quit changing for ppl
and here are just some random pix i took while i was cleaninf because I get bored, and i"m very lazy so of course there needed to be break time or else my room would have taken about 3 more hours than usual to clean. lol
stay kawaii ;)
Monday, November 7, 2011
nails and crap
I need to give myself a fill in but i don't have any polish remover isn't that terrible? I know right. i really want to use my moms but she barely has any left and i would feel bad. ciz my mom changes her polish often so if i took hers and then she couldn't changed i'd feel bad. but my nails look terrible. i filled them down and everything in prep cuz i didn't feel like getting up to find the remover then i go get it and its not enough to take th polish off of barbies nails so i'm stuck like this til who knows when.
I noticed the new trend where everyone gets the design on the pinky, or they pinky has a different color than the rest of the hand. I did that in middle school and people thought i was weird. I've been setting trends since before i meant to. like 8 years in advance too. I was born to set rends(not being cocky, i just do what i like not what other people are doing)
I have no idea what color i'm going to do my nails. I just got this new grey/gray, so i think i might try that out. I never got a chance to use it because it was like a few days after i already had a fill in so its time to try something new. I've never had grey before so yea.....
maybe i'll do the pinky thing. should that be grey or should my whole hand be gray and i have another color on the pinky??? idk
well i'll have a NOTW when ever i decide to do them.
have to ask the bf can i borrow a few bucks then
he still owes me 30 dollars and he is pissing me off because i have to wash clothes and he keeps saying that he needs the money but he seems to be getting dumb shit all the time. i love him to death but our house re model isn't done and i need need Need NEED to wash clothes and yeah.....i need to go to the laudromat but i can't go with just a dollar. i can't even walk through the damn door with a dollar. I can't let someone else borrow my detergent with a damn dollar. :(
arg. anyway. any color combo and ideas let me know
I noticed the new trend where everyone gets the design on the pinky, or they pinky has a different color than the rest of the hand. I did that in middle school and people thought i was weird. I've been setting trends since before i meant to. like 8 years in advance too. I was born to set rends(not being cocky, i just do what i like not what other people are doing)
I have no idea what color i'm going to do my nails. I just got this new grey/gray, so i think i might try that out. I never got a chance to use it because it was like a few days after i already had a fill in so its time to try something new. I've never had grey before so yea.....
maybe i'll do the pinky thing. should that be grey or should my whole hand be gray and i have another color on the pinky??? idk
well i'll have a NOTW when ever i decide to do them.
have to ask the bf can i borrow a few bucks then
he still owes me 30 dollars and he is pissing me off because i have to wash clothes and he keeps saying that he needs the money but he seems to be getting dumb shit all the time. i love him to death but our house re model isn't done and i need need Need NEED to wash clothes and yeah.....i need to go to the laudromat but i can't go with just a dollar. i can't even walk through the damn door with a dollar. I can't let someone else borrow my detergent with a damn dollar. :(
arg. anyway. any color combo and ideas let me know
I just come here to say what i want to say. I never thought that i'd have any followers or anything of that sort but i have one now so i'm very happy about that. So to HaZeL would you like to see a haul from all the crap i got over the last 2 weekends? Just a few pair of shoes and some make up. Mostly lippies and some other stuff? just wondering :)
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Harry Potter
Also at the end of the month I'll tell you the Potter-y things I loved the most, like wrock songs or new toys or articles that I feel others would like to read as well.
Thanx 4 ur time <3 Winterxj9
Nook Post
So this was an old post left to die that i never posted but since it was called Nook Post i figured i might as welo talk about the tourture.
When i moved my nook charger got broken. I haven't been on my nook for nearly a year. Just saying. I'm very very sad about it and the problem is that when i get a job i have to pay off all the debt that i have from the last time i moved and lost my job. I need to find one place to go and stay there because moving for me seems to be bad luck and i son't lke it one bit :(
and that is the story of my awesome nook that i miss so much.
it is residing in my drawer til further notice
When i moved my nook charger got broken. I haven't been on my nook for nearly a year. Just saying. I'm very very sad about it and the problem is that when i get a job i have to pay off all the debt that i have from the last time i moved and lost my job. I need to find one place to go and stay there because moving for me seems to be bad luck and i son't lke it one bit :(
and that is the story of my awesome nook that i miss so much.
it is residing in my drawer til further notice
Youtube
Se because for some reason when i edit my videos they won't go on youtube, I'm going to time myself and do half my face inorder to upload. The other half of the face will be on my blog in picture form for people with slower computer or whatever so they can look step by step at the tutorial. I've been trying to share my creative side for a while now and everytime i do something happens. So i will no longer edit videos. :( its sad but its the truth. i've seen someone channel where they had a timer for 10 min. youtube lets u do 15 now so lets see if i can make the vids less than 15 min, doing one side of my face
well i'm going to do my face make up and one eye and make that side with the bronzer and all that stuff. and then the cheeks and other eye and lips will be done on camera. everything thats not done on camera will be done on here so everyone will be able to see, i hope <3
so wish me some luck because i think i'm going to need it
well i'm going to do my face make up and one eye and make that side with the bronzer and all that stuff. and then the cheeks and other eye and lips will be done on camera. everything thats not done on camera will be done on here so everyone will be able to see, i hope <3
so wish me some luck because i think i'm going to need it
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
update nov.2011
I haven't been on my blogspot in a while. The problem is tumblr. I'm not saying that its better I just have more ppl following that blog. Anyway. I missed my blogspot because its not mainstream. My blog looks this way because i made it so. I didn't chose from a premade template that i don't acually like, But other than the blog talk...to the update.
SO i've been having man drama as always, I don't know what to do about the man I love and idk what the hell is going on with the bestfriends. I feel like everything is falling apart, and aside from that I'm still trying to make a living for myself. I've been meaning to start school but things like that cost money that i don't have at all right now. Like none. Work lasted all of a month before they "let me go" but i'm not fired. Just on permanent call til further notice.....yeah, right. that is the story of my crazy life for right now.
smh
SO i've been having man drama as always, I don't know what to do about the man I love and idk what the hell is going on with the bestfriends. I feel like everything is falling apart, and aside from that I'm still trying to make a living for myself. I've been meaning to start school but things like that cost money that i don't have at all right now. Like none. Work lasted all of a month before they "let me go" but i'm not fired. Just on permanent call til further notice.....yeah, right. that is the story of my crazy life for right now.
smh
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