JamJam/ Ham/ Jammy

One of my friends committed suicide on the 15th of this month. It has taken me this long to post about it  for several reasons.
1. We weren't all that close so i didn't want to write anything without thinking it over first.
2.I figured I'd make one large post after the funeral and all
3. I think that i needed to hear what some of our friends said first

So the problem is.....didn't really get to see what anyone said.
why you may ask?
because there will be no funeral. This  is blowing my mind right now... She moved to colorado so there is nothing down in Maryland going on. I have a huge problem with that. Her mother was goin got have a memorial and kept pushing it back and pushing it back and now for some reason there isn't goin got be a funeral at all
maybe the memorial is still going to be in december, but i also have a problem with at
Now everyone keeps saying that i need to keep it to myself and get over it, there isn't too much to be done. Since when does Winter keep shit to herself?

I DON'T!
I am very much so aware that i may not be her mother but someone has got to get shit done when a mother doesn't want to act like one
Now J and Koppa put all of their awesomeness together and made a memorial for her, just for the friends so for that I'm happy.
The memorial was aweosme. I didn't take pictures because i thought it might be innappropriate to do so at an event like that.

EVERYONE!!! and I mean everyone pretty much got up and said something.
We shared out joy and out sorrow. Amazing moments with an amazing girl and i really hope that everyone agree with me when i say that was an angel in diguise.

She may have hurt and she may have felt things that us mere mortals did not feel but it was all in the name of the god and goddess. She went through it all as a testiment to who she was and no matter what anyone says she touched so many people in so many ways and she deserves to be relieved of that pain.

SO many people love her and so many ppl will miss her and i just hope that we all come together to be better people for it

I come from a group of friends that were so close in high school and then when most of us left school we fell apart. some of us became different people and we penalized for being our true selves and Never has anyone changed into a better them have I loved them anyless. It's when you critisize and belittle others that has made you the bad guy. So all i ask is that out "family" stop being stupid and get your shit together. No one is going to love you the way that this group does. No one is ever going to care.
So please, stop fighting and love on another because if there is anything that Jam taught us is that it's okay to be yourselves. your real self, or else you'll suffer the same.
and i don't think that any of us can deal with another situation like that



stay together, love one another keep it Kawaii <3 winter